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So today has been great! I have done really well! I made a plan and I have stuck to it. When I got hungry this afternoon I just popped 2 Dexatrim and made a hot cup of tea. I kept myself busy cleaning at work all day, didn't really have time to think about food. Well, I didn't work out today, which I am okay with, this week is about getting my self control back and my eating habits back where I want then. I feel a lot more powerful and in control when I follow through with my eating plans for the day. I am sort of doing this weight watcher thing, but not really. I have to eat something, I can't fast I am terrible at it. I always makes me binge at like 11pm. I have to eat at least 1 meal a day. I guess I need to go to bed early so I won't pig out! 
I remember when I could have a cup of carrots and make it thru the day. I have to get back there...back to 118lbs. Once I get there I want to shoot for 102lbs. 
By the way, thanks to all you marvelous people who are always sooo encouraging.  
feeling:
cheerful cheerful
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i havent been lossing weight :[ i cant get below 125 for like 3 weeks! :'[ ive gained some then lost it again but i cant seem to get below 125?!?! any tips/ideas/tricks/what ever!

i also need advice on my first kiss :]]] im guessing its coming soon, my boyfriend and i have been dating for almost 2 months, hes said he wants to kiss me but we havent been alone for a while for him to do so >:P stupid school and parents.

ugh too much drama latley :P its making me eat wich i feel bad after wards for doing! why cant life give me a break?


                    "One can only feel desolate for so long. Until one starts to change Into something the                                                   mirror doesn't recognize. I metamorphasize"

feeling:
blah blah
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kinda fucked up a bit today, ate a muffin, a barbeque chicken melt and a cheese and tomato pasta pot. i know for certain the pasta pot is 170 calories, the muffins about 250 and in the chicken melt about 550, which means i ate just under 1000, which isnt so bad i guess, just frustrating that i have so little control!
from now on at the school cafe if im hungry ill go for fruit, its cheaper, less calories, and better for me! or ill just wait for my pasta pot on the way home.
ive completely stopped eating dinner now, my mum doesnt even care. shes like do you want dinner? no im not hungry. ok but you cant eat late at night. ok mum.
god, less than 8 months till i can start driving, happy dayssss!
so i weighed myself this morning 9st 1
2 pounds in 2 days :)
hoping for 9st tomorrow morning, but because of my binge today who knows.
how do you guys distract yourselves from eating? i need help because my friends hang out right next to the cafeteria :/
oh some goals im hoping for:
CW: 127 (9st 1)
GW: 120 (8st 8) - 15/01/10
GW: 110 (7st 12) - 05/02/10
GW: 100 (7st 2)- 26/02/10

im hoping for faster than that but im gonna to set my self achievable goals, giving myself 3 weeks for 10 pounds is nice and acheivable for my, a pound every 2 days :):):) my ultimate goal is about 90 :) but im leaving that till ive achieved these, if you could answer the distraction question id appreciate it thanks guys
Ceiridwen xx


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 Hi i'm new.

I'm really struggling with keeping my ed a secret from my friends any tips ?

:)
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Hey everyone :)
I'm a newbie here. My name is Lucie and I'm 17 years old. I am 5'8 and around 110-112 lb (too scared to weigh myself)
My goal weight for this month is 105lb and ultimately 95lb. I'm excited to finally meet others going through the same things, I've kept this to myself for years and it's just getting a bit tough. I'd love some new friends :)
xox
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I have done okay so far today, but it isn't very late. I dread night, I always lose control when it's dark. Well, so far so good. Hope all of you have a very successful day! :)
Only 225calories at the moment, I have been up since 6:15 am. 
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I've reached my first goal weight. 100 pounds yay! I guess I'm pretty of happy about it but I don't feel as excited as I thought I would. But I am happy because I know that if I could reach my first goal, I can reach my second goal (especially now that the holidays are over!!)
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Does anyone have any good ideas for constant inspiration>>>

any good books?
websites?
ANYTHING at all

i keep on screwing up after three days
ehhh freakin weak
this year i must be stronger.

feeling:
sad sad
hearing:
Rebelution
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So today is going much better! I have had 250cals and I just finished off 16oz of V8. I have to lose 20 pounds. I need to lose it quickly. I can't stand the weight I have put on, the past year has been binge city. So now that I am the size a cow...I feel so gross. I really miss the 118lbs, gotta get back to that. I am going to. Good luck girls :)
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Just picked up some size THREE pants
:)

down from a five,
boooyyahhh!

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5'3"

CW: 113
HW: 135
LW: 112
GW: 100

I woke up this morning feeling fat and bloated. I got oatmeal from Starbucks. Comes with brown sugar, dried fruit and almonds (each wrapped separately). I used a quarter of each and even had oatmeal leftover that I didn't eat.

I looked at old pictures and thought, "haha, I am so glad I don't have those arms anymore." Then looked at my right arm. I've lost over 10 lbs, why can't these f'n arms look better? I compare myself to these two old friends of mine, who are beautiful and skinny. I'm 113 today, still have fat, still have 36D boobs, and I look 130 compared to them. WHY??? Is my scale broken? LOL

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Well, hi everyone...been awhile since I have posted here. Of course Christmas was a disaster and now it being 2010, feel rather ashamed at how much weight I have put on. I bought more Dexatrim and plan on taking it whenever I get hungry. I have to exercise more and eat little. I have blown up!
Last July my doctor said I needed to lose 5lbs, well I got all depressed and I have successfully put on 5 more pounds. Ridiculous really. I know I have worked a lot more this year too, which I am thankful for the hours, but I feel so drained.
I want my body back...and  I am going to become skinny...more so than I ever have before. Sorry I left you behind ana, take me back?
feeling:
stressed stressed
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Hello people well, I just made a livejournal mainly because for a month my boyfriend has been searching for my blogspot which he finally found and in it described my so-called ED >.<

Well so I transferred some of my posts here and well nice to meet you all!

5'2"
CW: 110
LW: 108
GW: 99
UGW: 89

:)

feeling:
blank blank
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Today I am okay.
I had 800-1000 calories. I promised myself not to freak out because it wasn't a binge. I just HAD to eat dinner (Urgh mother cooking when she's not at work)
Oh I changed my default pic! It's not me though..I want that stomach, thighs and hips. Hmnn, one day.
Anyway I am aiming for 400 calories tomorrow since I'm on my bum all day again till college starts on the 4th. Ugh but yay ( I do art and I love art)
Mwah
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Right so today it's new years eve (well it is in the UK, not sure where some of you are out there)
Just wondering that everyones new years resolutions are going to be?

mine? well number 1) lose weight, think thin and stay thin this time!
2) Post more on this!
3) Concentrate a lot more on my dancing! (burns calories too!! )
4) Be happy? well make myself happy, not what anyone tries to tell me if being under 100 lbs is making me happy then under 100 lbs i shall be! (:

Hears to a happy and thin new year guys and girls!
Good luck in 2010, stay strong and starve on!
xx

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I've just started a journal about my eating disorder.

I'm a 23 year old male from London

It would be nice to get some friends and feedback

feeling:
hungry hungry
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Why is it that people always tell you how you can lose weight, then once you've lost the weight, they tell you that you need to gain more? Make up your mind.. Better yet, either be happy for me, or shut the hell up!
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